2019

Well.. another year has come to an end. Where do I even begin? This year has been such an emotional rollercoaster for me but we've come to the end of it and I'm only looking forward. However, it wouldn't be my normal end of year blog post without sharing some lessons learnt.

I started this year with some clear goals in mind, I was so focused on wanting to become the best version on myself both physically and mentally. I actually felt like I had everything under control and the year ahead seemed so clear of what needed to be done.. at least I thought. Life has a funny way of turning things around for you and throwing challenges at you that you didn't see coming. 

Change is good!

For as long as I've known, I've always loved to stay in my comfort zone. Not everyone likes change, I get it.. it's not easy stepping out of your comfort zone and doing things differently but sometimes that's what is needed. In order for you to grow and develop as an individual you have to do things that scare you! 2019 has been the year of change for me, I moved jobs after 2 years, I went back to school, I did things in general that were so out of my comfort zone and I'm happy I did. I've already noticed a positive change within myself all because I stepped out my comfort zone.

It's okay not to be okay

Some of you may have seen from my previous posts that I suffer from anxiety. This was at an all time high for me this year for a number of reasons, I remember feeling so annoyed at myself for not being okay and always feeling anxious about things. I learnt that you can't be too hard on yourself, you're only human and as cliche as it sounds, it really is okay to not be okay. Allow yourself time to feel whatever it is you're feeling but know when it's time to pick yourself up. I also had to make sure that I didn't wallow in my feelings for too long otherwise I would've just gone down hill. Having so much anxiety forced me to find ways to cope with it, working out and blogging were my escapes. Speaking of working out, I really need to back to the gym as it's almost been 2 months!!

Timing is everything

My mum always used to tell me that there was a time for everything, I never really understood it until this year!! My life has taken such a turn this year that I can't help but think it was all meant to fall into place this year. Sometimes we find ourselves in situations we feel like we'll never get out of or we'll never reach that goal but there's a reason for that. When you look back at all that you've accomplished in your life, you might realise that some things fell into place at a later time than you expected and if it was to happen sooner, it wouldn't have been right.

There is so much I'm taking away from this year and bringing into the new year.. or shall I say new decade! I'm yet again left looking back at this year feeling grateful for everything that's happened and where I am today. I wouldn't be the wiser Shamilla I am today if it wasn't for the experiences I've had. Life really isn't that bad, sometimes we just get caught up in the moment of bad times but I can't stress enough how important it is to look at all the good things in your life and all the happy times you've had this year. 

I have to mention this as it's something I've said I want to do in previous posts but I traveled to 3 different countries this year! Budapest, Thailand and Marbella - I still cant quite believe it but it's been a wonderful thing getting to travel so much. I can only hope I can do more of it next year. 

I've realised that I'm actually quite optimistic and I believe things will always work out, you may not see it at the time but they will eventually.

What are some lessons you've had this year? Leave a comment below! 

Love Sham x